i miss ya link
my best furry friend
my heart belongs to you
unequivocally to the end
🐾

chomped too many gummy bears
those sweet tart treats of happy chews
but now i feel like a boba drink
bouncy belly balls that make me feel boo

when will i learn?
lol probably never
i like the chompy stress release
and the nostalgia piqued, forever

why do i read the news
it makes me so #&!%$! depressed
functioning in a society
that performs its worst, best
a bunch of morons we are
without empathy or clue
idealizing narcissists
and the vapidness they spew.

i know there’s humanity
in those that protect
from life we’ve damaged
and shouldn’t have, in sad retrospect
i’m not innocent either
no one is, it’s true
that’s why humans stink
and sends me to dark blue.

i don’t want to end on despair
and know i must refocus
on things in my purview
which would be a dog’s locus.
i know, no one: dot dot dot
and me - HEY I LOVE DOGS!
but i’m writing for my psyche
to sort my mind’s dialogue.
❤️‍🩹
i go help doggies now.

i love this part of me,
i never knew
a passion for pups
and how much it grew.

i’ve found kindred souls
in the floofers and people,
rich with love and empathy
with hearts most peaceful.

this quiet dormant facet,
laid hidden to me
sprung from healing
and allowed me to see.

i didn’t even understand
how angry i was
anxiety hard in my fibers
provoked with cause.

the knots started to loosen
(with care and meds)
constructing forceful boundaries
from those causing dread

enter the floofers
profound wells of resilience
true innocence, delight
beaming radiant brillance.

i’m so grateful to them
to feel this deep
and wrap my kintsugi heart
in everlasting puplove to keep.
🐾

shorter days are here
the darkness is tangible
shine my own sun light
🧡

california sweet
redwoods oceans poppies, treat
breathe in your heartbeat
🧡

moving

in my decades years here
i’ve never heard crickets
the sweetest chirps
have become front row tickets

a symphony of summer
coming to an end
things are in motion
i almost can’t comprehend

sunshine looked warmly at me
said ”you deserve to live someplace nice”
and it touched my bruised heart
for her loving advice

our times are changing
with even more uncertainty
i hope we keep hearing life’s crickets
in earnest harmony.

chirp.

they drone
i groan
my patience
forms to stone.

minutiae, offkey, verbosity
the lifeforce drains right
out of me

a captive ear
headlights, deer
social niceties
dictate faux pleasantries

i only have so much
to give
and i’d rather not be your
therapist

and i don’t mean it should be
toxic positivity
just reciprocal mindfulness
when i become your ear diary.

i think next time
i’ll have my phone,
exclaim "ohigottatakethismessage!”
and go free alone
🥸

protect your heart
whatever you need to do
devolved in a playground of narcs
you’re compliant to soothe

expectations are still hard to dismiss
when all you’ve learned
is “earn worth” through submiss.
and so your insides would burn,

and a calcified anger
with outsized yearn
looking for light and warmth to free
the heart of her little inside me.

it’s okay it’s okay
you’re healing your worth
something some souls
may never find on this earth

a warmth, resilience and love
shine through
finding kindred spirits with
those vulnerable fluffy boos.

one day if someone has their luck
sweeping my heart with laughs and pluck
it would be lovely to burst even more light through
and give so much love, i have, to you
💗

you’re a funny enigma
i so appreciate
with quirks that humanize
and helps me relate

i’m peckish for you
when i see you stride by
unsure of the unspoken
whenever we say hi

i like you a lot
from our cute interactions
your lilt and hum
each tone a yum distraction

i think we’d have fun
at the very least
a fierce fearsome duo
a silly sexy beast

a lit simple space
red cushioned metal chairs
a lazy susan table
savory scents in airs

food was childhood happiness
a feeling that became rare
juicy wonton dumplings
in rich broth, simple and bare

the bite of egg noodles
a crisp firm wheat chew
slicked with sesame oil
blissful taste, i knew

a dish to nourish
and comfort my young heart
down to the last spoonfuls
never wanting to part

seven treasures was for celebration
and comforts and soothes
i’m grateful to this place
for the cherished memories i choose.
🍜

crush catastrophe!
over a lil snackie!
!!
my heart and mind
thwacks a bellyflop

and 500mph winds
smacks my face non-stop

there’s piranhas in the water
laughing at spilt blood

for being tiny vulnerable
lifting my face from mud

defcon 2000
alarms blast in my mind

sirens wailing
logic goes blind

face frozen in cringe mode
my teeth submissive

a spinning beachball
was it an accidental dismissive?

i’ll just presume the worst!
because that’s how my brain works

it’s time to leave the country
and be a hermit in caicos and turks.
.
👋🏼🫠 kthxbai

fluffernutters
you’re my muse
every pic that comes up
i’m happily amused.

blissful ball in your jaw,
chomping away
releasing the world’s ills
with a rubber sundae.

your sweet little snout
round and plump
when you’re in mid-thought
or ready to jump.

i wish i could give you kisses
all the time, every day
like during the pandemic
sanity – that’s you – my loving bae.

i hope we meet in your dreams
laughing and scratching bellies
pb treats, my favored routine.
xoxo linky.
🐶

i really love sleep
but it doesn’t love me
waking me up
at a quarter past 3
trying to figure out
what’s up with me
”is it covid or aging?”
as i ask chatGPT.
melatonin gives me nightmares,
wild and disturbing
magnesium i’m not sure yet,
felt ill, maybe concerning.
i think i need a mini-break –
quite actually,
sit with coastal redwoods
and the ocean breeze.
think about life
and love and dogs
cleansing the busy mind
from life’s heavy fog.
zzzz

i love my gals
from sun to ariana
from our start at g+
now celebrating with italiana
our little sun,
the bride-to-be,
with ari and i still quippy
being saucy and free.
making sun blush – she laughs joyfully
about “spicy” things
that are really just PG.
time warped in a flash
from our early days,
now post covid and babies
i’m so glad we still play.
xoxo
🍝🥂

link, i stinkin’ love you every every day.
adorning my heart, with unspoken words you say.

your eyes are dark, deep and expressive.
and i’m so happy to look back in reflective possessive

your palm tree of a tail in feather metronome pace
fanning our walks in a melodic grace

the innocence of you, my dear sweet pup
in this ambivalent world, overflows my heart cup.

link i love you so much
you don’t even know!
how just a quick glimpse of you
transforms me to a warm glow

perfection designed by eros
and ancient sparkling stars
ocean breath and plush waves
divine creation from afar

imbued into a loving creature
who prefers soft pillows and toys
smiles brightly at the ones who love him
especially me to this cherished boy.
🐶

BLAHHH i can’t sleep –
i had espresso at three.
my body is tired
but my mind is all “WHEEE!”

so here i am in limbo,
with the hum of the AC.
a weirdo that’s buzzed —
channeling it into creativity.

i wish i had a felt tent,
like the one i hid in germany.
with max as my jetlagged neighbor,
as we talked of life frivolities.

or when i was in tokyo,
with my ipad and the city scene.
quietly drawing the twinkle views,
in stillness and serene.

in paris nibbling at midnight cheese,
falling asleep in morn.
waking up afternoon refreshed,
to catch a sunset born.

fuzzy states of consciousness,
between cogent and daydreams.
thrumming a surreal rhythm,
a path upon sleep/wake seams.
.
1:09am

he tried to playfully mock us
with our bunny plush boba teas
and instead got a clap back
about his recent Phish spree

”ooh burn from the Phish guy”
said the pedigreed PhD
and continued his sound thesis on
the absurdity of Phish wookies
🐰🧋🔥

dear benny you send me
to all calming places
your warm weight on me
– instant homeostasis

your darling gentle face,
a lineage of great flufferdoodles
a floppy flop gait
like fresh al dente noodles…
a drop onto me,
back haunches awide
laughing i soothe,
amused and oblige
falling asleep
with your disney eyelashes
quietly i melt,
filling heart caches

darling muppet benny,
you sweet loving gal
your pure love i esteem
soft tactile morale